Colone

It got freezing cold in the last days.
A lot has happened... and after a beautiful sharing and a gooood dance last night, i woke up this morning in the middle of colone at a friends place, first shocked and very much touched by the feeling... and what now? where am i going, whats going to happen, how am i going to earn some money and where do i feel weel and home... so i had to do a little work to get back into the moment and found myself back to working again. Not for money but still, i had the feeling that i am just at the right place and the right time, even though there are all these questions and uncertainties. I cant and wont stay in the city too long, it is no good for me. I know i can be everywhere and will be fine, but the smog, a million people and cars are just not ideal...
I was blessed to be able to participate again in an intense day of constellation work last saturday that really helped me and brought me to deep peace and love. Thank you Hannelore!
Last night, some of the participants of the path of love met in the osho uta for a touching and honest sharing that really helped me to realise, whats happening inside... The last weeks had been sometimes extremly painful and very rich as well... and i found, that i need and have to take better care of myself, especially in social situations... i am usually very tense and uncomfortable amongst people and now... i found out why and what to do...

And i am very grateful to Michael who made the journey down south so smooth, fast and easy and incredibly inspiring .... and to my friend Viraj offered me his place to stay on the roofs of colone, including two amazing cats!
If i do not worry about the future, i realise, i am soooo well looked after, its amazing!
And i will keep searching for a place of love, for touch, surrender and yummy nurturing and connection, for deep peace and raw and real authenticity. I long for a lover, i long for live, to use all my energy and fullfill myself, my dream.